1 Samuel 30:6 “David was now in great danger because all his men were very bitter about losing their sons and daughters, and they began to talk about stoning him. But David found strength in the Lord his God.”
In this chapter, David and his men returned to Ziklag after being turned away by Achish and the princes of the Philistines. They did not trust him because David had a reputation. The Philistines knew God was with David so they refused his request to fight alongside them in fear they would fall like the ten thousands.
As the men traveled home, they probably imagined shouts of joy from their neighbors as they entered the city, squeals of excitement of their children and looks of relief on the faces of their wives. When David and his men got to Ziklag after a three days journey they discovered the Amalekites had invaded, burned Ziklag, and taken captive the women and children.
The men were devastated to the point they wanted to stone David. The men were warriors that believed in David, fought alongside him, bled with him, ate and slept with him but none of that mattered when grief struck. Wait a minute! His wives were taken captive too, but the men were not thinking about him. All they could focus on was their own pain. Since they were hurting, they wanted to hurt him. Sometimes miserable and hurting people will attack you for reasons beyond your control, but you have to turn to God for strength. Do not give evil for evil or attack those who attack you.
People who know me know that I love what I do for a living. Being a property manager is not a profession I chose but God chose me for it. So last week when a resident spoke some hurtful words about the way most residents felt about me it took me by surprise. She was not angry when she spoke, that is why I did not recognize it as a spiritual attack. She spoke the words like a proven fact, but it was only her opinion. I knew what she said was not true but I could not shake the words of hate. My peace was disturbed and I woke up three mornings with heart palpitations. I thought the way I felt was due to just allergies.
Every morning this week I cried, prayed, read my devotions and then got up. I also questioned my purpose and effectiveness to the point I grew distracted and made mistakes I would not ordinarily make. Every evening after work and for the past two weekends, I retreated to my quiet place. Shutting out the world, I played games on my tablet, ate healthy snacks and binge watched TV.
This morning, after watching Pastor Michael Todd preach “Marked,” the Lord revealed to me the words the resident spoke over a week ago were the cause of my distress. He then reminded me of the dream I had Wednesday morning between my alarm and getting up.
I dreamed I was in a room surrounded by women singing. I felt myself trying to be composed but the presence of the Lord was so strong I leaned over and began to worship God in the spirit. One of my cousin’s was there and she wrapped her arms around me and held me. Although it was her arms holding me, I sensed the presence of my Savior.
I woke up praising the Lord in the spirit and enjoying the embrace, which I could still feel. I got out of bed feeling free and ready to face the day. The weight of the words had been crushed by love.
I could not pinpoint exactly what was causing the disruption in my life, even after I had the dream and God did not reveal it until today. Attacks will come from expected and unexpected places, but do not allow the enemy to bully you. Stay connected to God. Encourage yourself in the Lord, cry, pray and get up. My feelings were hurt and I reacted the way most would, but I got up. I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be and I am not going anywhere until He tells me it is finished.